Needs work

How do you react when you're given the complete opposite of what you expected?

I wish I could say that I am so on point that I am grateful and unquestioning every time. That I don't hold it up to God and say "what's this?" with a pained expression like it's something awful...that I never try to push it away like a 4 yr old pushes away the plate given them that has vegetables they don't like on it...that I don't dig my heels in, cross my arms across my chest, turn my nose up and refuse to accept this is what I've been given.

Within myself there are these warring factions...in this instance there is the ungrateful child and the mother who is horrified, heart broken, unceasingly asking for mercy for the child who cannot see.

Well, ma'am what were you thinking might help you feel better about this situation?

I work in customer relations right now and here are a few things we were taught...

People want what they believe they deserve and at first they may play this cat and mouse game, I don't know what I want but I need something...offer too low and they're insulted and too high...there is no such thing as too high, usually.

But the reality is there was in fact a pre-conceived notion, whether ludicrous or reasonable, of what they believed they deserved regardless of if they come out and say it or not. And if that is not met, they usually aren't satisfied.

I wish I could say I didn't pull this with God sometimes...but I have. Lord, whatever you want me to do I'll do. Oh, wait! No, this isn't right, I was thinking more along the lines of being a non-profit miracle worker who globe trotted and was married to a ridiculously amazing man who made all the money so I could work for pennies no problem...

Did I miss the little box where I get to fill in my preferences?

I don't know what it's like in other countries but in America particularly, we're very used to getting what we want. May I have the cheeseburger, only bison instead of beef because that's better for you, no mayo, lettuce but not iceberg I like endive, tomatoes, the little grape ones because they're sweeter and cuter and dijon not yellow mustard...oh! and no cheese...and a wheat bun...baked fresh this morning.

And it's ruined us...

With 'Have it your way' 'Build your own' 'Just the way you like it' marketing greeting us at every turn...

I wish I could say that I wasn't one of these people that I never found myself editing an already specific menu item to death or saying I don't want that, let me do it my way...

And sure we can argue the gravity of these things on a case by case but I can't help but think this idea slowly creeps in and begins to bleed over into other areas...to include our relationship with Christ.

A heart, this heart, must re-learn what it means to be genuinely grateful.